It’s such a blessing … Those days when you’re lost and confused….overwhelmed with life’s perplexities and vulnerable to your anxieties …
He stands still besides me and simplifies His secret complexities… I’m writing easily cause I’m surrounded with such beauty in the midst of soo much unsurety …

I am confronting such a strong opponent and here He reveals His secret in this very moment.
This crazy, sweet love of mine surprises me again with His timing divine ..
I’m not yet aware I’ve crossed over … I’m in another realm … Whilst I was struggling He was wrestling my unseen foe and loosening me into an altogether another flow..
I’ll never really know this sweet friend of mine … Yes, my lover, my mentor, my redeemer, my guide divine ..

His ways are not my ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts … They are from above and I’m yet to understand His given virtue in each and every issue ….
In every trial is a triumph, in every struggle there is a release and every tragedy leads to an enormous victory …..

I’ve learnt a few secrets in those years of togetherness, so in these moments of loneliness I join my hands and say that in spite of all my pursuits …

“I Thank You ..I thank you ..I thank you …!”

What’s the mystery in my gratitude that releases His army in fortitude that I’m confounded where I stand … Yes it’s my inheritance but it’s still not in my hand … I’m assured without a doubt and I’m covered in His glory cloud!

The brass bow I’ve seen it bend when I stand in reverence with a head bent …
There’s power in my frailty for Him to show off his majesty … Why would I ever be so foolish to try to workout my way when He is around? …
I’m free ..I’m full of glee, like a little girl running from tree to tree with His gifted hope of eternity ..

The promise is at hand… It’s beyond my reach but it’s mine indeed … No evidence I have but an assurance that He who called me to Himself will be faithful till my end …
I’m blessed beyond compare … No one with whom I could bare my heart’s deepest despair so I poured it out on Him.
He drank my bitter water and gave me instead His living water to quench the strains of my horror ….

“I’ve called you out of darkness into My light to shine bright cause this is who I am….
I drink your curse and you get blessed .. I eat your sorrow and fill you with peace, I bleed for you to be complete … I’m rejected for you to always be accepted… Use me as your mercenary He says … Give me all that hate and take from me this blessed plate” …

“How can this exchange be true?”

I give him my curse and I’m blessed … I pour out my bitterness on His head and I resurrect …
All that pain and shame on Him to find myself on another glorious plane…
What a heart in this Man? Not just a man but My God!
He smiles and says to me …

“I came from our Father to show you the way…A part of His great divinity is in me and you remain in me … Learn from me … Follow me”….

“Where will this road end?”

“Into your very blessed retreat beyond the highest mountain peaks into the Father’s heart of peace!”

I smile, I’m calm … I’m secure in His resting place, hidden beyond every gaze, being blessed with every secret embrace …

To go higher I’m put down lower, to go farther I’m pulled back behind … When I cry I laugh louder … When I’m alone I’m surrounded, when I’m empty I’m being filled …
Give me some ‘Prerna’ I pray … The nights are too long … But dawn to dusk I’m confounded by your glorious mystery… No one can know your way …
You release a blessing … It’s what you do … for everyone who comes to you .. You’re mysteries are for all of us to find … Such is you my ‘Prerna’ my ‘Life’.. I’m blessed because of your great sacrifice.